Desperation and disappointment

It's been a while since the last time i updated my blog, lol

Actually, my internet connection was recovered weeks ago, but my laziness caused me dun feel like wanted to update my blog, laziness... lol!! xD

For certain reasons, my blog is alive again, hmmm... Because something must be expressed here so that i will feel better, maybe? i guess

Today, I done with my last assignment for this semester, my research essay, relax? Not at all~

And ya, my final exam is coming soon, after a week, what to say? Preparation is definitely needed, so, i'm going to do my revision. Here we meet again, mr. nervous, mr. worry, and mr scare~ lol and and and, mr busy~~~~~~~~~~ xD

Alright, desperation and disappointment, but why? Because!! I'm totally disappointed of you!! You're the one who give me hope and now you're the one who let me down and yet, you're trying to hide something from me?

Sorry, i'm not a dumbass, and i guess i'm observant enough to know what you're doing behind me! I trusted you so much, i thought everything is just fine but now, everything had just turned over! I lost my trust on you, no more! You're supposed to be happy, isn't it? Satisfied with this kind of ending? Go ahead!

But, you should know, i won't live like the way you wished me to be, i dun give a shit, you have nothing to do with my life... So, there's nothing between you and me anymore...

Sometimes, i'd hope i'm wrong, really... but thing doesn't happen as i hoped to... For this time, i'd hope i'm wrong again and i shall pray... haiz...

Feel like want to sick again, sigh, body is not feeling well... Oh god...